later I search for my Father's house
with the help of two men in tan uniforms
in their 4X4, one named Klaus
before they drive me there
I press a pancake of play doh
onto a road directory in a shop where
the directions don't affix
by then the men had already left me behind
finally another man draws me a map
home is by the river Styx

Later, high on grassy hills
that overlook an ocean
I turn to see the latest kills
internal organs
crushed between two rocks
and a bloated fetus
spread over stones and weed stalks
infected with HIV
surrounded by ravenous wolves

whores approach
old with experience
she knows the cop

she got him in her pouch
she rubs her perfect, round ass
onto my crotch and breathes
I've missed you
I want to hear you cry
like bales of hay

I ignore her
and worry about AIDS
yet I phone friends to join the party
one of them shows up and pays
he rents the room while I buy a bottle

I drink my fill
My friend gets the whores

I get the bottle

 

along the infinite path of time

I find a 'real' woman
we live together with a cousin
it's just a hotel room with 2 beds
and a place to hurl
I pace the room one day
while they rest
mentally preparing for school
they sympathize with my test

let's burn off steam, she says

so she takes me to the club she works at
to watch gay men dance
a black man runs between them

he's fat
playing flute
the holes lighting up

the street-walker from before
serves drinks topless
I excuse myself and meet her in a hallway
near the bathroom
--it's a mess--
to ask
have you ever repressed strong feelings
of virility
this lights her up

meanwhile I see
three

blond muscle-bound men accost
my girlfriend
they take her to the restroom
insert a tree branch
into her vulva
then they break it off

but I find out much later

I tell myself
in the meantime
I show the whore my tree house
have an out-of-body-experience
and watch us from afar

the woman of the night is a gymnast
she wraps a rope around her leg reluctantly
and I hoist her up
as she hangs
I tell her 

wait til I return

back at the club
dozens of gay men rally against me
someone put them up to this

or maybe they want their call lady back
so I challenge them to some kickball
anyone who kicks it wrong
dies
I kick it to them but
they boot it back
plans backfire